This is not going to be profound. I just noticed something while in English class. We're in the middle of presenting some ideas and rhetorical devices in some transcendental texts, and everyone is speaking. Annaliese was speaking, and it seemed as if she was screaming right in my ear even though she was way across the room. On the other hand, Suriya is so quiet I didn't understand her at all. In all fairness, I didn't even try to listen to anyone. But when Anneliese spoke, I felt commanded to listen to her. Her voice was so firm, and loud. I could tell she was a bit nervous since she alternating in volume a lot-- sometimes I felt she was not only screaming in my ear, but also holding a megaphone to my head, while other times, she was only shouting at my face-- but it hardly deters from her overall voice.

She spoke with such firmness and hardly hesitant.

I always thought I spoke that way, but after hearing a majority of these people speak, on average, a slightly-above normal volume, I came to wonder, how loud am I?

In almost all conversations I've ever had, since I was in elementary, I cannot speak an appropriate volume. I usually speak too loud or speak a regular vile that trickles into a hardly-heard mouse. It makes it so that when I present and try to put volume into my voice, I speak very loudly and can project well. I don't know if this is the case, as I came to wonder just a moment ago.

My loud tendencies stem from my dad complaining that I can never speak clearly, which he blames on Cheryl because she spoke too fast, so I spoke too fast too and he couldn't understand me so he told me to speak more clearly which included speaking more slowly and loudly. I only fixed one of those things, much to my dad and I's chagrin. But I still speak too fast, and i think that is a major thing that undermines my presentations, which I also started thinking about while doing the interest meetings with my club, Cards4Kindesss.

My voice is a damn mess and now I'm taking a speech and debate class to try to fix that, but I can tell you, it is not working well. I constantly procrastinate on it, and my excuse is that I'm working on decathlon, but the reality is that I'm procrastinating on that too. In all fairness, Decathlon also has a speech event so I'll probably learn to speak better there anyways so what's the point?

Anyways, I'm writing this in my classroom so I feel self-conscious about how fast I type so I'm just spewing stuff out right now to just have words to type and this is leading nowhere so I'm gonna end it here.